It's my potty and I'll cry if I want to.

Have I ever mentioned that I hate potty-training? Well I do. I detest it. I am angry with myself because in December, when Georgie was dry and accident free for four days, I did not throw away all his diapers. I had him exactly where I wanted him, but then Christmas came along with all its chaos. I strapped a diaper back on him to get us through the holidays, and thus the days of the potty have become a distant memory.

We're working on it again, but it's hard for me to be enthusiastic this time. I find myself counting from one to ninety-two in order to keep my cool when accidents arise. I am trying to stay on top of him to make sure he makes a trip to the bathroom at least once per hour, but if anyone knows me, I lose track of time like a doped rat. But I'd say the worst part of training a boy is - misfire.

Where is that nanny I've been relentlessly praying for? Now would be a fabulous time for her to magically appear. Any volunteers?

101 Random Things About Moi

1. I was born in Florida.
   
2. I was raised in New Jersey from the age of ten months.
   
3. I have not lived in NJ for almost 6 years now.
   
4. But when people ask me where I'm from, I still say New Jersey.
   
5. I have no relationship with my biological father.
   
6. I was adopted by my dad when I was a young child.
   
7. I detest when people refer to my biological father as my "real" dad. My REAL dad raised me.
   
   
8. I am afraid of the dark.
   
9. I am afraid of basements.
   
10. I have no sense of direction... I make a wrong turn and get lost constantly. Even in my own neighborhood.
    
11. I've been called "Charlie Brown" because of my habit of sticking out my tongue when I am concentrating really hard.
    
12. I only eat bite sized food in even numbers. (i.e. cereal, corn, m&m's, nuts, peas etc, etc, etc...)
    
13. I would die for my children.
    
14. More significantly, I would kill to protect them.
    
    
15. I used to smoke a lot of pot.
    
16. I still wonder what long-term effects that has had on me.
    
17. I quit smoking cigarettes in 2001.
    
18. I occasionally sneak a cigarette when no one is watching me.
    
19. I miss smoking. A lot.
    
20. I lost my virginity way too young. I regret, not the person, but the age.
    
21. I have only had sex with two men.
    
    
22. I have never cheated on anyone.
    
23. I have been cheated on.
    
24. I have been truly in love twice in my life.
    
25. I do not want to be cremated when I die.
    
26. I am a creature of habit, but I hate living in a routine.
    
27. Red wine gives me a nasty hangover.
    
28. But I drink it anyway.
    
    
29. Tequila makes me want to dance.
    
30. I hate to dance.
    
31. But I would love to learn ballroom dancing.
    
32. I am five foot seven.
    
33. I have never had a broken bone.
    
34. I am very reserved at first glance.
    
35. But when you get to know me I never shut up.
    
    
36. I don't like confrontation. I am unassertive. I don't stick up for myself very well.
    
37. I think that comes from being an only child.
    
38. I have never been arrested.
    
39. I have never had a cavity search.
    
40. I hope I never have a cavity search.
    
41. I hate people who do not use spell check.
    
42. I hate when people type LiKe tHiS.
    
    
43. Inconsiderate people piss me off.
    
44. I am one of the few people that misses high school.
    
45. I am left handed.
    
46. I sleep with my socks on.
    
47. I sleep with my underwear off.
    
48. I love to read.
    
49. I am very nosy.
    
    
50. I cannot sleep with the heater on.
    
51. I always sleep with the window open above my bed. Even in the winter.
    
52. I hate the smell of Pine-Sol.
    
53. I love the smell of sweat.
    
54. I pour milk on my Jello.
    
55. I like mustard and onions on my grilled cheese sandwiches.
    
56. I think coffee smells better than it tastes.
    
    
57. I have been pregnant four times.
    
58. I have three children.
    
59. I would love to have at least two more someday.
    
60. But I will probably never have more children because I can hardly afford the ones I have already.
    
61. I used to play the clarinet.
    
62. I wish I could play the piano.
    
63. I really want a tattoo.
    
    
64. I have ADD.
    
65. I stay up all night.
    
66. I have never had braces.
    
67. I love being alone.
    
68. I'm scared of turning thirty.
    
69. I'm even more scared of the alternative.
    
70. I love sleeping with my kids.
    
    
71. I have never worn glasses or contacts.
    
72. I am terrified to fly in a plane.
    
73. But I want to skydive someday.
    
74. I love airports.
    
75. People who drink "decaffeinated diet sodas" annoy me.
    
76. I am a great speller.
    
77. I won the spelling bee in the fourth grade.
    
    
78. I love romantic comedies.
    
79. I crave recognition when I work hard.
    
80. I want beautifully manicured nails.
    
81. I hate fake fingernails.
    
82. I love a tidy house.
    
83. I used to be a slob.
    
84. I still keep a few junk drawers to satisfy my inner pack-rat.
    
    
85. I am a giver by nature.
    
86. I'd love to go to the theatre more often.
    
87. I hate people who do not say "please" and "thank you."
    
88. I don't have a favorite color; I like them all, but I'm partial to green and purple. Pink too.
    
89. I love to cook.
    
90. I'd like to bake more often, but I'm lazy about it.
    
91. I love to sing, but I am horrible at it!
    
    
92. I love cloudy, rainy or snowy days.
    
93. I love going down the shore.
    
94. But I hate the beach.
    
95. I love lakes.
    
96. I adore Ireland.
    
97. I am a cat person. Dogs are entirely too needy.
    
98. Margaritas are my favorite alcoholic drink.
    
    
99. I hate being naked.
    
100. I am turned on by English accents.
     
101. I believe in soul mates, destiny, karma and kindred spirits.
     
     

I'm having an affair

So it's Wednesday. And have I lived up to my resolutions? Well..... not exactly. But I will start walking tomorrow. I swear. And as far as my attitude, I really am trying. There is one thing I am excited to report. The husband and I are really working on incorporating at least a few of the 25 bliss factors into our daily encounters with one another. It has made a gargantuan difference in the way that we interact and behave together. He has become the caring, considerate and romantic man I fell in love with seven years ago, and I have been trying to be more kind and patient with him in return. It's amazing that with a few simple changes, he and I are reshaping our once uninspired marriage into a blazing love affair.

"Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved bring a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring." ~Oscar Wilde

"I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you."

"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." ~Judy Garland

"Just so you know, there's a space that only you can fill. Just so you know, I loved you then, I guess I always will."